balapan

up until jakarta bombing, and then back to xinjiang, and then back to afganistan, pakistan, iraq, southern phillipines... (i think the list is just too long to be written over here)

i am afraid that what i am doing is not fast enough to face them...

i already opened the door, and finally managed to step my first step inside it. still i cant see the edge. but i keep on stepping my feet. and i dont want to be defeated by the exhaustion the normal human being always have.

the oil price is climbing again to almost 80 USD per barrel (something which i predicted in my last two post), the stocks are skyrocketing again, the macro indicator are good again.. but that's all only an indicator. the human will always remains as human until forever, and until today when every value of life is all about numbers (money, i mean)

i am afraid that what i am doing is not fast enough to face them...

i am dreaming to see all human back to their original position again. where anyone always thinking as if they are just a blink of an eye for what they are standing now, and preparing for the real journey behind all this. the human will have nothing to lose and doing good things for every drop of sweat they have without even thinking about what they are having,, because we are only a human being..

i am afraid that what i am doing is not fast enough to face them...

from converting the human being into the human having..

psychological muscle

do you find out that the greatest gift given by the Almighty is the gift that force you to loose what you like most??

yes, i find it.

i've passed so many catastrophic episode of life.. i had to loose almost everything i liked most ever since my child age. yes, there are so many things i had to loose.

but i woudn't be this strong without it all.

those loose are like a muscular training; your muscular gets stronger and stronger every time the load of your training is increased. even before the training started, the muscle is nothing. just after we born to the world from our mothers, we were simply nothing.. we're not strong enough to walk by ourselves, not strong enough to draw food to our lips by ourselves, and many more. but here we are, as an adult i can even outperform my parents in a running competition (of course i do :) because my parents grew older and older..thank God, for giving me parents like them)

those loose made my soul significantly stronger than ever before. if my body is developed by physical exercises, my soul is developed by the loose i have passed throughout my life, and still.

i choose not to spell out the detail about the loose i have been dealing with at this occasion. i just want to give you the analogy that the loose you are dealing with IS your very beginning of your extraordinary life..trust me.